His lung was filling with water
like a river rising in an underground cavern.
The doctors gave him all sorts of things:
a respirator, a feeding tube, and restraints
so he wouldn't remove them. They gave
him a free haircut and a shave, his beard
of twenty years sacrificed to make space
for his face mask. They even gave
him a prognosis of about a week,
but not morphine, for fear he would get
addicted. They gave us a family
reunion: siblings, cousins, grandchildren,
all sleeping, waking, pacing together
in the hospital waiting room. What they gave
themselves was practice - experiments
with different drugs, an intern who tubed
the wrong lung, a chance to show off
their sympathy. Daily they untied him,
massaged his wrists, gave him paper
and crayon so he could send messages
to his loved ones. Pain, he wrote
instead, in large shaky letters. Water.
And later, smaller, Please.
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